Hopeful Dreams

Numb.
Words, just words.
Sometimes words can be hurtful. Sometimes words can bring joy. Sometimes words can bring happiness. Words can cripple someone. Words can make someone soar. Three words, eight letters, one meaning . Those words made me complete and happy.

Today is my one year Ann. with my Daddy. This past year has had so much happiness in, so much sorrow, so much joy and so much pain. i never , in a million years thought i would be writing today, on my one year ann. that my Daddy and i over. When He ended things with me , i felt like someone had their hands around my neck , trying to suffocate me. my heart tried to leap right out of my chest. i wanted to cry , and scream please, please wake up from this night mare. it cant be true, i just cant be true. He can't not love me anymore. i feel broken again. When He found me, He put me back together again. made me whole. made my heart , beat again , i could feel love. i always felt His love surrounding me. His love guiding me. His soft words in my ear. His hand holding my heart. It never crossed my mind that real life would cause Us to end. i was content in having Him love me and Him letting me love Him. He was my Angel , my Best Friend, my Lover, my Heart, and my Daddy. i existed to serve Him.

i have to say thank You to Him. Thank You Daddy for all the beautiful times, thank You for showing me what being surrounded in love at all times. Thank You Daddy for letting me into Your heart. Daddy thank You for being You. Daddy because of You i am a better person, i am stronger because of You. i think You are the most amazing Man i have ever met. i will always love You , even though We are not together. Thank You for everything Daddy. Thank You.

love minx

i found a song that i think fits this whole thing so well i am going to share it here .


"Beautiful Disaster (Live)"

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world would cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold me tight
Hold me tight

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm searching for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long

He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's beautiful
Lord he's beautiful
He's beautiful

slips off

pet

~a slaves soul and spirit should be treasured and not broken~